We'd try to love him.

We were all in the car coming home from school.  So, every once in a while it comes up about Si having Down Syndrome.  I'm not sure the exact conversation train, but I ended up saying...

"What if Si didn't have Down Syndrome?"

Ian and Lily:  (almost the exact words and timing)  "Oh! I'd still love him anyway!"

I wasn't expecting that... Lily is always in disbelief when she remembers me telling her that 90% of people who find out their baby has down syndrome abort them.  She usually bluntly says, "The people kill their babies, just because they have down syndrome?!"  I am a little more tactful and politically correct than that...  I always tell her not to speak so harsh about people "killing" babies.... that all we are responsible for is showing people how cool it is to have a baby with Down Syndrome.  We can show people that Si is just like any other baby, but just..... well... cuter.  She loved that.  She usually is the one that brings us back to reality that Si isn't the cutest baby in the world.  She says, "mom, some people in other countries have cute babies and they think their baby is the cutest.... they haven't seen Si before, so they say the same thing about their baby."
She's very logical.

So I thought when I asked that question... What is Si didn't have Down Syndrome?  that I would get something like.... well I don't know... I guess something.  The more I try to think of an answer, the dumber the question seems.

Anyway, My point is.... my kids are so awesome.  That's all I wanted to say with this post.

And, we would all still love Si, even if he didn't have Down Syndrome.  We'd try to love him, anyway....

One Year Ago....

...my family's life was changed.  This little guy entered our life and turned it upside down.  We thought we knew what it was to love.... we thought we knew what it was to accept....  we thought we knew what it was to trust in the Lord.

We knew a little.... but now we know a little more.

This guy has changed our lives' in ways that we aren't even aware of yet.  I just know that, like with each child we've been blest with before... we each smile a little more, love a little more and kiss a little more often.  I love seeing Ian, Lily and Seth become better humans each day.  I feel like God has blest me with a tiny "cheat sheet" for raising them.  Si has caused them to think twice while looking at people with disabilities.  He has them thinking beyond themselves.  He has them longing to care for him, to defend him, to teach him and to show him everything in this world.  Through this year we have gone from being scared of what the future holds to being so excited about what is ahead for us.

This baby is more than our baby... he is who Rob and I will grow old with... and we thank God for it. 

Happy Birthday to my little Man!

Happy Birthday, Si.

First Tooth

Rob has been telling me for days that it looked like Si was about to get a tooth.  I didn't think anything about it.  I guess because he is almost 1 and seems more like a 6 month old.  I thought I was ready for him to go at his own speed as far as development.  I'm a goal girl and I was ready for all these goals that we'd be striving for.... but it is taking so long!  He's not crawling.  He's not moving from lying down to sitting or vice versa.  I have to admit that I was getting frustrated.  That's hard to admit because I love this guy more than I can even express.  He is my heart.  I, literally, thank God for him every time I pick him up.  But I watch all the babies he was born with crawl and walk and I want him to hurry up!  When I sit and pray, I know that it does no good to rush him.  He will crawl.  He will walk.  He will do all these things.  This was confirmed yesterday in a weird small way.  He has a tooth.  He has developed.  He is like all his friends.  I didn't think I was so ignorant of that.  But I have never been so excited about a first tooth!  I felt that little dagger and was so happy!  I just needed that little confirmation that he is growing up.  He is at his own pace.  

He also will crawl...

He is slowly, but surely growing.

I know I'll look back and wish it went even slower.  

Merry Christmas!!!

Si's First Christmas!

MADSOG Style...

In the car with Seth

Me: I love you. 

Seth: I lo....  ,,,,,  I know. 

Me.....

Seth:  I love you sometimes, mom. 

Me:  .....  Thanks. 

Seth:  you're welcome, mom!!!  (Joyfully) 

Finally....

I finally got some sweet ones of my Seth.  He is not easily photographed, because of his issues with cooperation.  He is a very sweet boy though... he chooses to let only some see his sweet side...occasionally let's some people see it...But when he does choose!  Man!  It's good stuff.

 When it comes to Si, though... He doesn't usually hold back.  They LOVE each other.  I can't wait to see how their relationship develops through the years.  He doesn't think of himself as Si's "protector", like Ian does.  He shows his love just as much, but it's different.  They are brothers.  Best brothers.  I'm so proud of how Seth immediately loved him.  When Seth first laid eyes on him, he loved him.  I had never seen Seth so nurturing and kind.  Si brings out the best in all of us.  I'm so thankful to what he has shown us in Sethie.