There's been a few strange things about adjusting to life with my Si. They are little, but I'm kind of an awkward person, so it's big for me.
The more time I spend with Si, the more I see his characteristics of Down Syndrome...but also the less I think of him to be "a Baby with Down Syndrome". A lot of times I wonder when we meet someone new or if an acquaintance is meeting him for the first time...can they tell he has DS? It doesn't matter except that don't know if I should blurt it out or what? The only reason I want them to know is so they don't find out then they've already said something they could be embarrassed about or regret. I just don't want anyone to feel weird or uncomfortable...I want everyone to feel the way I feel when I lay on the couch and he smiles at me. I desperately want everyone to experience the joy I have when I look at him. That's impossible, I know... that would be weird, I know. I am "the mom" obviously. But I just want everyone in the world to know how sweet he is. I want them to see that he is just like my first 3 babies. He smiles, he laughs, he loves to be talked to and he loves to puke on my shoulder every time I pick him up.
Being a photographer, all of my kids get photographed like crazy. Believe me when I tell you that every stage is well documented. Same with Si, but his stages are lasting longer and I am having trouble capturing how I see him. Most pictures I take, it is obvious of his diagnosis. They are just not quite him. I love the pictures, that are 1 in 50, that are completely him. These 3 pictures are him. This is my baby. My sweet Si that loves to smile and be talked to for an hour. I guess it's not my problem who can tell how special he is. This is how I see him right now... and if you don't thing he is adorable... that's ridiculous... I know you think he's adorable.
